Did you ever notice when you are not with the person that you love....you start to notice all the little things that you once took for granted. Everything that I used to think would always be there is gone now. And you know what makes this even harder? The fact that everything I see and hear reminds me of her. My room is still filled with pieces of our memories. Photos, a painting, a stuffed animal, a present, even her bag of sleepover clothes. I can't bring myself to take any of that stuff down. To me, that would be like losing hope....and right now...hope is the only thing keeping me from sinking completely. This morning I got online to check myspace. The main reason I even go to that site anymore is to check out new bands. I often get random messages from bands asking me to check them out. Well today...this random band sends me one of these messages....so I figure what the hell....it's nothing out of the ordinary. The band is called Without Tomorrow and the first song on their page is "I Wanted To" After listening to this song....I almost lost control of myself. It almost perfectly puts into words the way I'm feeling right now....of course a random band that I have never heard of before will have a song that hits me right in the face....what are the chances??? For anyone who wishes to check it out, go here: http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=3090769


If that doesn't work....just run a search on "Without Tomorrow" on myspace. Just listen to the song and you'll understand what I mean. Anyway, I've been doing a lot of reminiscing lately. I know it's probably not the best thing for me, but I can't help it. I was looking back at all of the messages we sent to each other in my myspace inbox when I came across this one message from way back before we even started dating. The message was just a bunch of random questions that I asked her in an attempt to get to know her better. Well guess what? One of the questions I asked over a year and a half ago was: do you agree with this statement: "getting hurt again is better than not giving somebody a second chance" why or why not? If that question doesn't seem weird enough based on the situation we are in now.....her answer was this: yes becuase if i didnt give them a 2nd chance i would always wonder what if.


All I can say is....I just keep wishing she still has those feelings....

I'm in the same boat with you.
» Dilated on 2006-11-08 09:02:46

And I don' tknow what either of us can do when we're confronted by the memories of the past, other than face them head on. Its good that you're trying to move on though... I'm trying. Not working out so well.
» Dilated on 2006-11-08 09:03:23

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