Ok folks....I think I made a major breakthrough today. I'll have to admit...this morning was probably the hardest day for me out of the last 17. However, at some point during the early afternoon....I started to feel better. After almost 2 and a half weeks of nothing but thinking....it finally hit me. You have got to let her go. If she doesn't want to be with you anymore....that's her decision. You can't control how someone else feels. I've come to terms with the fact that I made mistakes....and I'd be willing to more than make up for them if ever given another chance. I'm not going to place all the blame on myself any longer. The bottom line is that it takes two people to make a relationship work. She made mistakes too...the only difference is that I seem like I'm able to forgive easier than she is....which is fine....again...it's her choice. I did everything I could to make her happy...if it wasn't enough...then so be it. I still believe that I'm a completely changed person now....but I'm still me. I may be more emotionally open and I may be more compromising....and I may have a better control of my emotions....but deep down....all of the qualities that make me who I am are still there. If that wasn't what she wanted....then that's the way it is. It is time for me to move on with my life. I'm not saying that I wouldn't jump at the chance to give us another shot....of course I would....I still love her....and I always will. However, I'm not going to wait any longer. I have my life to live....and she has hers. If one day in the future her feelings come back...there's a good chance I'd still be here waiting....I'm just not going to plan on it any longer. I've changed for the better...and if moving on is what I have to do right now....then that's what I'm going to do.....with or without her by my side. Hopefully I won't regress back into one of my former states....because I see better days on the horizon. I don't know what the future will bring, but I think that I'm more equipped to handle it now. Thanks for everyone who supported me in my time of grieving. I really appreciate it. Let's see if I can dig deep down and bring some of the old Mike back. Who's ready???

So your conflict is resolved.... awesome. :)
» randomjunk on 2006-11-20 07:37:01

dang that took much less time than some guys i know... congrats!
» xXxshegzxXx on 2006-11-20 07:43:55

wow. i feel you u know.
about how people change && all that affecting their decisions && relationships w/ other people.. yeah..
Dnt worry. "Old mike" will be back before u know it. :)
» frostbitten on 2006-11-20 08:43:09

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